I knew I knew a lot of things.
I never knew how many I didn't.

I never knew how much you meant
until you went away.
I never knew how much I cared
until you stopped.
I never knew how long the race was
until you left me in your dust
I never knew what it really meant to be alone
until you left me.

I never knew what it was like
to have your world come crashing down
until you killed us, the intangible us.
The us that everyone always questioned,
the us that no one ever understood.

I never knew that a picture could make me cry
until I found one of us,
taken when everything was all right.
I never knew how different soul mates could be
until I looked deeper into your eyes.
I saw the lies
that lie
beneath the surface.

I never knew how much unsaid words hurt
until I saw the broken promises
that lay on your lips
unspoken

I never knew how tragic a story could be
until ours was cut short

I never knew how vital memories were
until I couldn't remember anymore.
I never knew how much I loved your voice
until you stopped talking.
I never knew the length of a year
until my first without you.
I never knew the depth of grief
until I lost you.

I never knew what it was like to die
until you did.